Look at me,
Can’t you see the pain?
I was wondering if you’d have ever thought about me.
Don’t you remember the times we have spent?
Don’t you recall those laughs we had few years back, don’t you?
I wish I could talk to you.
I wish I could make you mine again.
Maybe it was always fake as I haven’t realized this distance then.
Cuz after 3 years, still I don’t want to accept that you don’t care anymore.
I wish I could say sorry to you.
I wish I could apologize for the reason you’ve left me.
My efforts were always at their peaks.
But the reactions went neutral every time.
You never responded to my screams, to my calls, my begs.
But you were selfish, you never told me what’s the matter, the reason.
I have so many questions buried in my mind and clenched in my heart.
I always get melted down whenever I see your graceful (shit) face.
No matter if I pretend to be strong and smile like nothing’s wrong.
But inside I’m dying.
I’m dying to talk to you, to ask you, to tell you.
I want to say SORRY for the reason I don’t know.
I am really sorry if I hurt you.
I wish I could get you back, like we were before.
I worry about the times when you will ignore my funeral too.
Because you hate me so much, that you don’t even want to see my face.
Hardly at some points you smiled at me when I was in front of you.
Was it just to make me more hurt?
More guilty? more broken?
I prayed to God just for you at times.
But maybe they never reached to him.
I miss you a lot.
I just. miss you. I miss US.