Yes I am not okay.

I stay quite,

Because i want to be.

I feel useless to talk in front of you all,

Because all you people see my emotions as “anger”.

I tried to make up things,

but you ruined them everytime.

You ask, why I am so upset?

Little did you know, you’re the only reason . 

Your mindset, your ego, your arrogance,

I am done with it but I should not be.

You do some unnecessary shits,

And praise them for God knows what reasons.

You say, you are so irritating,

Yes, I am… because you never tried to know what my heart belongs to.

You do what your fucking mind says,

But now it’s out of my level of peace.

I won’t be able to handle your shitty decisions,

Pardon me darling, you’re not going to lead on my way.

You said, I am changing,

YES I HAVE… atleast you noticed a thing. 

                                –xOx

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Stained from Divine..

This moment would be perfect

If I had you wrapped in my arms

Talking about your favorite movie

Just to feel your smirks and charms..

 

This time would be perfect

If I had just you to be with me

Watching this beautiful rain

And listen to that first met story..

 

This day would be perfect

If I could kiss you right now

Holding you close and not letting you go

And presumably make you feel special somehow..

 

This life would be perfect

If I had your love as same as mine

Walking intertwined in the alleys of heaven

To be the Saga of Love, stained from Divine..

The Wedding Day (part-2)

Hey Readers!

Just a quick note, if you haven’t read the first part then please go through it first and then this one because it’s important! 😛

The Wedding Day (part-1)

Here’s the link and if you have read it already then you can proceed here.

Thank you! 


……….

Mom took my hands and led me outside

No noise, no voice, no celebrations foreside..

I noticed all eyes were on me staring

All I heard was people’s humming..

My heart was acting insane

The breaths, the beats, the brain..

Dad was standing in front of a flower decorated car

It was HIS, which was still unrevealed star..

I rolled my eyes at it all over in some expectations

The jasmines and roses, beautiful combinations..

Dad bowed head as he looked at me

I still didn’t got why everyone was looking at me..

I looked and gave a quick smile to dad curiously

He didn’t moved but looked at me restlessly..

“What happened?” mom asked when she came

I smiled in confusion and gestured the same..

He opened the door I was waiting for

The door I always dreamed and lived for..

There was the person I was willing to see

My future, my groom, my devotee..

My smile went bigger but dad didn’t responded

I took steps further to welcome him and greeted..

Mom asked the same if he could tell

But dad still was the same like he didn’t heard the yell..

I looked again in the car nervously

He wasn’t moving an inch even partly..

I bowed head to see as I got closer

My heart stopped and time got slower..

He was pale, pure and still

God, his eyes were closed and mine filled..

I looked at dad and again at him

“Dad he is not looking at me” I whispered

“He is not listening to my words” I whispered..

No replies I got in result

No words I got in return..

I kept asking hundreds of questions

It was like no one was giving me attention..

My body felt weaker as I don’t want to realize

My precious love, my better half is demised..

I noticed marooned henna on my hands

Wondered if he could find his name on its grands..

I wasn’t ready to face this extraordinary sorrow

It was like God has took everything he allowed me to borrow..

“No, please.. just no…” I whispered

“Please say something to me.. please!” I whispered..

Some people gathered to take him out of the car

I was just staring at him, my only leading star..

I wore a maroon lehnga and all the matching jewellary with it

He was wearing white Sherwani and matching shoes with it..

We were looking perfect

But God seems to be upset..

He was lying in front and not looking at me

And I was pretending all day that he will smile at me..

The butterflies I felt every time I saw him

Are dead now just like his soul met the rim..

I dreamed of every single thing of after marriage

The kids, the work, the happiness and affordable carriage..

 I literally didn’t believed he was gone

Someone told it was a car accident across the road..

He went to buy something he said ‘important’

The tear I felt on my cheek was inexplicably instant..

I closed my eyes and saw him smiling

Just like we first met and exchanged sweet hurtings..

I felt myself tumbled on the ground harshly

The pain, the cries, the screams loudly..

Just after my eyes closed and met him again

I saw him standing next to me in kingdoms of heaven..

We both were in whiten long outfits

Holding each other’s hands fearless and explicit..

That was the moment we gazed our eye’s ashen

In the presence of Almighty, we hitched in heaven ..

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wed..

–xOx–

 

 

The Wedding Day (part-1)

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“Look at Her, She’s glowing!”, Said an aunt of mine

As I woke up & walked in sunshine..

My heart was acting insane

The breaths, the beats, the brain..

As I rolled my eyes on the decorations

The orange & yellow flowers, beautiful combinations..

I noticed marooned henna on my hands

Wondered if he could find his name on its grands..

I could feel the different mild air

The day was more bright and fair..

The music being played all night long

The dances, the whistles, the celebrations along..

I can’t believe it’s the day

The day we have planned so far..

He and I will get hitched today

So many years, waited for this day..

“Get ready my baby girl”- heard a voice

My mom stared at me with a rejoice..

Her eyes were wet I could see though

I tried to hug her but she said me to go..

I left her in the lawn crossing all the relatives

Thinking about my Lehnga and all those imperatives..

Excited, nervous and happy I reached the room

Scattered stuff on my bed made me bloomed..

The make-ups, the bangles, the jewellery and sandals

My glittering eyes and thoughts got more tangled..

My best friend was there helping me to get ready

The pressure of looking good was killing me already..

I heard some loud noises out of the window

She opened the door glancing at them and bingo!..

“HE’s here” she giggled and ran closer to me

My heart skipped and I can’t tell was it my happiness, or just HE..

I looked in the mirror and there was someone else

Is this me or any other girl who just got out from the shell..

“You are looking beautiful” -she said

“He won’t take his eyes off of you” –she said..

I just smiled back and held her hands tightly

My mom entered with a smile but more brightly..

She was looking so happy I can’t express

She came closer to me leaving behind all the stress..

I hugged her back as I wanted that much to be

I looked again in the mirror still not believing if it’s me..

“You’re looking so pretty today” mom said in a broken voice

I glanced at her eyes resembling with the previous noise..

“Mumma please don’t cry” I said in my sobs

I could see my past life hiding in fogs..

I thought about the new life and  the new character

My new story will be quoted as “happily ever after”..


 

Hey Readers!

Well it’s a poetry, I don’t know if i am right about this word because this time i am working on this short story in form of poem. This is part 1 and the next part will be the end. Not more than 2 parts because it won’t be short story then 😀 hehe. Well please don’t forget to comment your kind views and critiques are also welcomed. So it was just a quick note for you. And yes, also don’t forget to give it a star if you liked it.

Thanks A lot for Reading!

.The.Clever.Idiot. aka Nisha 🙂