PROUD to be Yourself…

“Don’t wait until you have reached your goal to be proud of yourself. Be proud of every step you take towards reaching that goal.”

If you haven’t heard it yet, let me tell you. I’M PROUD OF YOU! For everything you have done to reach here, For every single moment where you have made yourself strong, for every night you cried and suffered through those hardest shits, for every smile you maintain to pass it to someone, and for EVERY thing that I have forgot to mention here. :p I’m sorry about that.. So, this one was my words for you by deep down my heart believe it or not. But there’s also something you should be proud of yourself.

I am going to tell you some reasons you should be proud about yourself. So tighten your seat belts and just go on and read.

1. Proud to be what and whoever you are. There are a lot of people like you on this earth who think that I don’t have a perfect body shape or I don’t like my complexion or I can’t study like other students in my class or I can’t sing or whatever is it. Remember one thing, you are far far and far better than them in the subject you love. You are that great ‘someone‘ that they can never be like even into their wildest dreams.. ~and we danced all night to the best song everrr!~..Oops I’m sorry about that. Maybe you are a musician, maybe you have prettier eyes, maybe you have the biggest heart, maybe you care for people, maybe you can write very well and maybe you listen to your heart, maybe you can eat more fries, maybe you do things behind closed doors not showing to anyone, maybe you know what most of the people don’t know. You are what they are not. Proud to be who you are. Because you are one of a kind.

2. Proud to be born this way. Let me tell you something about myself, I’m a fat girl and I know that very well. I never weigh myself because I know the results will be horrible! And the most important part, I am proud that I have a body like this. I don’t know why! But I love myself having chubby chicks. How stupid this is no?.. But it is important for me. I am what I am and if someone judges me about my body I just listen to them to make sure that they are getting importance. And when they get lost.. I forget that every single thing they have said to me. DON’T WORRY BE HAPPY AND NEVER THINK ABOUT THE NEGATIVES. Love yourself dude!

3. Don’t be proud on everything you do. It’s okay to feel proud about yourself and the stuff you do but it’s not necessary to feel it for everything. Like you beaten up someone without any reason, you passed exam with cheating, you abused animals or any person, and you bullied someone and whatever it is bad and negative. I’m saying this to you because pride comes before fall. Mind it! Yanna rascala..

4. I’m proud to be different; it’s the best thing about me. Is there anything left to say? To explain? Is it? Then let me know about it. Have you ever seen someone who is handicapped or with any disability? I don’t think there are stronger people than those who face problems every morning they wake and every night they sleep. I really LOVE those people and really, I RESPECT them with depth of my heart. Our problems are nothing if we compare them to the angels’ living in this world with their disabilities. You’ve got to learn so much from them and serve respect to those people. And you never know which deed of yours’ God loves the most.

5. YOU ARE AMAZING!. Believe it or not. It’s a truth of the day. Wait, what you said? Why am I amazing? Yeah ok let me tell you. You read this whoooooooole thing and still reading and pretending that I’ll tell you why you are amazing. You are not that stupid right. How can I know what is your passion? If you have any passion then you are AMAZING and if you don’t have any, then you’re still amazing.. I don’t know why.. just amazing..

I’m so confusing right? I know. Passions are really a gift from God to us. It’s a big thing which describes us the best way. I have my passion, you have yours. So let’s change the world with our own colors and thoughts. I know it’s a dramatic line but at least think about it. This is the right time to show what we are and I know that world is gonna accept it in a humble way. The future is waiting for you and your success will lead you to the best, you could ever have been.

Thanks A lot for Reading!

(=xoxo=)

-The Clever Idiot a.k.a Nisha

 

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From the Diary of Another Girl..

Yesterday I was going through some books of my high school and was just trying to pass the time because at night after 11 PM I feel usually bored! I don’t know if it’s just me, I can’t sleep at that time. I found some of books which I have lost that time and never knew that it was already in my cupboard from months. I found some other things like stickers which I had bought back then, some silly games which me and my friends have played on papers and other things. They brought back so many memories that I was literally smiling on the second thought of my school times and the silly things we used to do in classes. My bed became all messy which I didn’t realized at all, but it’s okay for me. I am used to it!

There was a book I finally found which I was looking for (I think), it was the book my brother brought for me when I was preparing for my BPT entrance test in Jamia Millia Islamia in early 2015. I took it out and I can’t explain how chilled my brain felt because it was really one of the best reference books I had in my previous days. It looked heavy due to some papers placed in it which were making it look more voluminous. I grabbed those papers who were torn out from a notebook and immediately I got to remembered what are they.

There was a bunch of five papers in my hand and I was literally feeling good after seeing them because the stuff written on them was belonged to one of my best friends, Ayesha. It was the collection of some poems written by her and I remember that she ripped those papers from her notebooks and gave them to me. I don’t know why she didn’t wanted to keep them, maybe they made her reminds of her past life but it’s not our topic to discuss about.

The first poem I have read was a really special one for me (and for her as well, I think!). It was written really well and I seriously love her style. Here we go for one of the beautiful works I have in front of me.

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I want to Die Young..!

I want to die young,

No matter where is anything..

To find the love of heaven,

To find the peace of mind..

I want to die young,

I want to die young..!

Beyond the restrictions,

Beyond the ‘You’..

To find only me,

To find only me..

I want to die young,

I want to die young..!

To light up my world,

To light up my sin..

To heel up my wounds,

To heel up me..

I want to die young,

I want to die young..!

No matter where is anything..

For the heavens song,

I want to die young..

For the sake of loyalty,

I take a route of locality..

In the valleys of clone,

I am here alone..

I jump in the memories of past,

Which were gone so fast..

I want to stay beyond you-

beyond me..

To find only me,

To find only me..!

I will meet you there,

Where there’s no fear..!

–xOx–

I can’t tell you the feeling of reading some one else’s work without even knowing the story behind it. If you loved it then you just put your head up and stare at anything and just smile because you just felt something unknown which is good. I don’t know if Ayesha still writes or not but I wish she never give up on her this talent. This blog is dedicated only to her. She’s a great friend and a great human being. May God ease her life and just give what her heart wants.

I will share with you guys a series of this blog in which I will include only one poem of hers. I think it will be too long if I just write all of’em in same note. Let’s welcome a new talent in our WordPress world and I promise you guys, if this idea is going to work, I’m going to gift it’s success on her birthday!

Thank you so much for reading I hope you liked and I wonder if you guys will wait for the next one? maybe!

Bye! xoxo  

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

The Crushed Reverie..

One day I was in my coaching sitting alone in the hall and staring at all the posters and pictures of students who cleared their entrances and got higher percentages than average students (like me). I kept staring at them and wondering how stupid they all look in these pictures and these posters are all over the area close to the coaching center. My physics book and notebook stayed open in front of me and I wasn’t in a mood to study even a word. I lost in my own world of thoughts and.. just lost..

Couple of girls enter in the hall and sat on chairs which were placed far away from my table but in front of me. I noticed them and tried to look back at my books and mind my own business. But as I’ve already told you that I wasn’t interested in them so I opened my notebook from back and grabbed my pencil. The other girl also entered the hall room and  sat opposite to the same table on which those two girls were talking. I took a relieving breath because I didn’t wanted to talk to anybody that time and just be alone. My hand was moving on the page and suddenly I found that those lines which I have traced with my pencil were making a picture of something. Nothing came to my mind so I just concentrated on my random sketching and drew whatever came to my mind. Those girls kept talking and talking and talking. I don’t know how can girls talk like, that much!

I drew a lot of stuff like a peacock feather, my name in some stylish way with 3d shades, my pencil pouch etc. on those two pages of my notebook including postures of those girls in front on me talking a lot. I was feeling refreshing when I was sketching and only an Artist can understand how peaceful your mind becomes when you sketch and draw. I kept drawing passionately and didn’t got distracted by anyone or anything. Those grey shades I made with my pencil were describing every thing I wanted in my life (most probably). I wanted to draw my life by these pencils and some colors you know, I just wanted to make these drawings as my profession. I wanted to explore everything about art world and wanted to just lost in it because I find it really beautiful and calming. I just can’t handle myself when I come to draw things and just want to draw more and more and more and a little more, a bit more too. My drawings mean the world to me because these are the only things in which I find my best friend or you say love, yeah. They just stay with me no matter where I am. I can draw on sand if I do not have paper, I can draw on rock if I do not have sand, I can draw at night from stars if I do not have light. The thing I want to tell is, I LOVE ART.

I kept sketching and sketching because there wasn’t anyone to stop me, exactly ‘no one to stop me!’. After some time, suddenly my physics teacher came and I hurried to open my book and close the notebook in which I have drawn my things. But somehow he saw them and took my notebook from my hands and searched for them. I worried because I thought he will not like the fact that I wasn’t study and passing my time in some stupid sketches. He found them and traced his eyes on every sketch with a little smile on his face. He laughed in the next second which made me more nervous. “What are you doing? Why don’t you go and just achieve your dreams? Why do you want to study science instead of this beautiful art? Huh?” He asked and continued smiling. Little did he know that somewhere somehow, his words hurt me. He took my notebook and showed it to those girls. They also appreciated and were continuously observing their postures and some other sketches. My Sir was aware about why I was in science and not in arts. He started asking me about how did I do that and how I can imagine the stuff like this. He continued talking about me and my hobbies to those girls that I like playing guitar and I’ve got admission in Bachelor of Fine Arts in year 2015 in one of the most popular universities in New Delhi. He also explained how my family didn’t supported me in joining Fine Arts and how I have got to skip a year just because to study science in my future.

I could hear myself crying inside and I just want to run away because I didn’t want to hear anymore about myself. The pain I felt in my chest was exactly like a dark and harsh waves of sea at the time of storm. My eyes were filled with tears and I was trying hard not to cry and I kept smiling and just nodding while Sir was talking to me. He was looking into my eyes and didn’t said a word anymore. I think He was trying to catch the feelings of mine that how down and upset I was feeling. When I felt like I can’t control my tears so I got up and hurried to the exit gate where a water container was placed with a glass on it. I fetched that glass and filled it half with water and drank it in large sips to make my throat a bit loose which was tightened from the suffocation I was feeling at that time. I stood there for 3 minutes to calm down myself and again came in the hall to sit on my chair. It was really hard for me to accept the fact that I cannot draw and paint anymore for my own happiness. Sir looked at me and he knew that I was crying so he tried to cheer me up and ordered a cold drink for all of us.

I was quiet because it was killing me inside that I cannot make my future in these sketches. I was quiet because those smiles and those eyes watching my drawings and appreciating the art, was the thing I hated the most. I hate when people use to say good things about my art. I know what you are thinking, people feel proud when someone says good things to their work and I am the only one who hates it, strange! isn’t it. Can you think what is the reason behind it? because I don’t want to share it here. I don’t know I’m just not feeling ready.

The art is one of the most beautiful things we have in this world and it plays a big role in my life. I love to sketch on my walls and just lost in the world of colors. I love to make different shades on my drawing sheets on sceneries. I love to buy colorful sheets and decorative stuff because these little things make me feel good inside. But at the same time I hate them because they make me feel good and frustrated at the same time. I have to leave this gift from god because an important part of my life doesn’t want me to do it. He hates the fact that I draw and not concentrate on my future in medical line. I just can’t handle myself in terms of arts. This whole thing is based on the fact that I am from middle class Indian family, where there’s nothing like ‘Follow your Dreams’. A lot of people here can’t achieve their dreams because this society isn’t allowing them to get there. No matter how passionate you are about your thing, you have to do what ever is good in eyes of your families and societies. Just like engineers, doctors, architectures etc.

Why so many people are jobless? What is the reason behind that most of the people do not enjoy their works? In ‘So many people’ there are ‘some’ who are forced to be in that situation and there are also some people who doesn’t get any platform in their works where they could earn at least for their needs. There’s no man alive on this earth who doesn’t dreams about his life to mold it in his own way. But the society who will never grow up here will always put its finger in ones life. It’s really hard to survive in the society where you can’t follow the way you want to. Same case is with me, I can’t make my life in a way that I wanted to just because of my family and society. Because they will never let me go out and see the world with my eyes. And of course I’m a girl, this is also one of the reasons why I can’t make my dreams come true. It’s stupid, isn’t it?

I can’t do anything with my life, I mean I can’t change anything. I just have to walk on the way which my family has prepared for me. They always do things for my betterment and maybe this decision also belongs to that ‘betterment’. I know that I’m not happy with it but somehow, every time I end up with compromising with my dreams. It’s really depressing how people like me can’t get what they want.

People, please! I just want you to FOLLOW YOUR DREAMS and please do not be like me because it’s so frustrating and sometimes you just can’t handle yourself. The nights in which I’ve cried and didn’t slept for hours, the days in which I was filled with anger and just shut people out, the times I was so depressed that I can’t explain. I just don’t want to see you guys suffering from the times which I have been through. Please understand the values of your dreams and your talent. You really matter because remember always that not everyone can do what YOU CAN DO. I know, YOU CAN DO and YOU WILL DO IT!.

 

 

 

My First Musical Instrument..

A year ago I bought a guitar from my friend who live in street opposite to mine. Today’s my guitar’s first anniversary and it’s also my first blog here. This one is dedicated to my best friend who was there for me whenever I wanted. It explained my mood every time I grabbed it in my hands. It never complained to me and never demanded anything (instead of some cleaning and care :D).

I know how difficult is to play an instrument at first. But you know things get better with time and this rule also fits on our beloved instruments. I want to share some things about playing music and how to make yourselves stick to them. This blog is obviously for beginners and music lovers.

1. How to choose an Instrument

If you want to buy an instrument and you are confused in what to buy and what not to then do not worry I think you are at the right blog (hope so). Here are some tips who will help you to choose which musical instrument you should play.

  • You better know about yourself. What kind of a person are you? Which type of music do you listen? How you treat your friends, family and other people? Are you a complex or sorted/easy to understand person? These questions really matter in choosing an instrument because your art defines you the best way. An artist makes himself in his paintings. This is the reason why people recognize the artist by his paintings. Didn’t got my point? Oh god these Einsteins! Here’s an example about me, you better read it. [Example – I am a happy but some times upset as hell type person. I listen both type of music i.e. rock and soft. I love my friends and family. I am a complex person and rarely sorted one. That’s why I chose guitar to be my partner. You can play any type of music with it (soft or wild) some times it hurts you and some times it will help you to recover with your bad moods and some times it enjoys with you no matter how pathetic you play it. You have choices with it like one way or another.]
  • Choose the one who suits you. Your instrument could belong to the string family (my fav.), percussion family, wood wind family, keyboard family or brass family. Just make sure it suits you and your personality. Obviously you can choose more than one instrument too only if you got that much patience to learn them.
  • Do not give up easily. Musical instruments take time to fit in with you like your pets. If you have never played any instrument then it will take much more time to you. You have to be an easy person with it otherwise it will never work for you. Start slowly first no matter if it sounds horrible.
  • Believe yourself. That is most important thing for the beginners. If you are shy or reserved type then do not play in front of your friends (your choice!) or in front of those people who makes fun or laugh at those horrible sounds when you have just started to play. Just close your room’s door, play and test yourself how easy and comfortable you can go with your instrument. Again I want to tell you that it will take time.
  • Practice, practice and practice. Spend time with your new friend (I mean instrument) and just try to make the music flow in your own way. No matter if your fingers will lead themselves to bleed (not really! O.o). But as you know that practice makes man perfect (who gave this quote can you please tell me? I am too lazy to google it). 
  • Show Off. The most easy and helpful tip of the day. No matter if you have learned only one song and it’s easy as heaven. Do not forget to show off. It’s one of the best thing you could do with your this friend. It’s fun you know. I do it every time! 😉

No matter what, everything needs hard work and heartiness. Instruments are like your best friends who stays with you forever. Give your heart to music and music will never leave your heart. Which ever instrument you’ll choose you have to love it with your heart because it really needs care. If you do not respect music you can never be a good musician even if you want to.

2. How you could improve your Music

There are many ways to improve yourself in music other than just practicing. As technology has been so much kind to people like us, you can learn it without a teacher as well. You don’t need any theory or any other boring stuff to learn music. Just grab your phone, laptop or whatever you have (it has to be a gadget, but it’s my job to tell you the whole stuff!) and search tutorials for beginners and I am sure that there’s nothing on internet you can’t get. Here are some ways which will help you to know more about music.

  • Make contacts with Matured Musicians. Yes, they are one of the most profitable person you could have ever met, but make sure you find someone similar to yours. Just do not leave a chance to discuss about music with them. Try to ask more and more questions with them and I bet you they will never get bored of your questions. It’s a fact, no teacher gets bored of their juniors’ questions. Don’t worry if your junior knows about music more than you, just keep yourself easy and try to pull out more and more things about it. Squeeze their minds as hell but do not make them annoyed otherwise you’ll never find them around you again.
  • Surfing on You-tube. Search for tutorials for better learning of songs and different ways to play your instruments. There is a whole world of musicians on You-tube and it’s one of the best ways to learn with/without a teacher (for free! yay! I love free things ;)). If you find it difficult to play even from the tutorials (when some musicians use advance chords and caption it as ‘for beginners’, what the hell!) then go and search for the covers. Covers of the songs are the best videos in which you can learn about the techniques and variations you could use with chords you find easy to play.
  • Try to make your New Style. Observe different patterns and sum up them in a new quirky style. Not many musicians have their own style (like me :p). So try to be different and learn from wherever you could. Audience always loves new and different stuff. So you know what I mean! 😉

3. How you can use your Music Skills

There are many ways to use your talent. Do whatever you want to do man! there’s no barrier between you and the sky. Just fly and reach wherever and how far you can go. Or you can just keep it as your hobby. But if you want some suggestions about ‘Future in Music’, then I’m still here. Where else can I go? jk 😉

  • Make videos! the coolest thing I want to do. It is really a good surface you can show your talent at. You can make your tutorials or make your covers of your favorite songs. You will get really amazing platform their. Maybe you can get offers for playing music in some shows or some album productions. God knows! but it’s really a good place. Many musicians received so much support on You-tube and achieved their dreams. Maybe you’re the next one!
  • Be a teacher! It could be frustrating at a time, but it’s fun also at the same time. It’s better to make geniuses than to be a genius. Well that was a good line 🙂 wasn’t it?.
  • Make your hobbies your profession! There’s nothing better than this. Living your dreams is the best thing you could ever do to your life. Not everybody get this chance but if you can do it, YOU CAN DO IT!.
  • Make it better and better and BETTER. If you don’t want to make it as your profession then it’s okay too. Music is a thing that you’ll never get bored of. Just do your best and the best will come to you.

Okay people! I think I have shared a lot of stuff with you. But believe me this is really a good habit if you make it yours’ favorite. I just wanted to describe the importance of music and the respect we should give it. Stick to the music and you will never need a person to understand you or make you calm down when you feel at your worst. The emotional attachment I have with music is inexpressible.

So if you have some things common to me or you love music then comment your thoughts about what you feel about it. If you liked this blog then please let me know and don’t forget to hit on that star below. Have a good day people!

Thanks A lot for Reading!